and I ramble on....

To give life another chance

2012-01-19T13:44:00.001+05:30

Something shook up my core

and I don't know what more

surprises and tremors are in store

just want to stay safe on shore

The waiting boat looks comfortable

sturdy strong and very able

to keep my slight frame safe

from the storms that might take place

Yes the boat is not the problem

though it has fought hard in the sea

it has survived through the storms

not too unlike me

Then why am I afraid

to step in the seas again

I can't drown once more

But what if I do, how can I be sure

My first voyage taught me to swim

and to survive despite despair

What I still need to learn

is to cross the sea without the fall

I look within a lot these days

mostly to learn from my mistakes

and to tide over this phase

with some amount of confidence

Confidence to step in the sea again

to trust myself to be careful enough

with the boat which should stay strong

and to give life another chance

yayyy

2012-01-10T10:00:00.002+05:30

There is no saint without a past and no sinner without a future.

With that thought; I square my shoulders and strengthen my resolve to be free from chains of all doubt and judgement.

I take a leap of faith into the new leap year.

yayyy!

Word game

2011-10-23T15:59:00.000+05:30

Words. War. Game. Win. Lose. Him. Lies. Pain. Tears. Dread. Depth. Alone. Pray. Peace. Smile. Joy. Infinite. Universe. Sun. Bright. Shine. Hope. Sing. Dance. Happy. Pray. Thank. God. Friend. Me. Respect. Love. Life

Remembering Jobs

2011-10-06T21:40:00.000+05:30

“Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking. Don’t settle. As with all matters of the heart, you’ll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don’t settle.”

“No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don’t want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life’s change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true."

“I think if you do something and it turns out pretty good, then you should go do something else wonderful, not dwell on it for too long. Just figure out what’s next.”

"Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything - all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.''

"Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice.''

"We don't get a chance to do that many things, and everyone should be really excellent. Because this is our life."

"I was worth about over a million dollars when I was twenty-three and over ten million dollars when I was twenty-four, and over a hundred million dollars when I was twenty-five and it wasn't that important because I never did it for the money"

"I'm the only person I know that's lost a quarter of a billion dollars in one year.... It's very character-building. "

"Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards.

So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life."
Salute!

An open letter to the people in my life (since its a new trend and I AM a dilli ki kudi)

2011-09-15T14:53:00.002+05:30

This open letter is addressed to all the people in my life (from various sects, castes, communities, the institutes I have belonged to, circles as defined by google plus, the organizations which have sustained my learning and bank balance, family, people who belong to none of the above but are still in my life)

The aim of it is not to insult or mock any of you (I am different?), it is in fact to convey a heartfelt thank you.

September the 13th was my birthday, and there was something special about that day (read: full of firsts)

1. I enjoyed mom's halwa more than the cake :) (that's a first)
2. I couldn't speak - literally...my voice box has given up on me :(
3. I went to work in an old full sleeves suit and a shawl (in September) just to keep the office AC from getting to my vocal chords further
4. I was happy in spite of point 2 and point 3

I want to thank aaaaaaal these people in my life who were responsible for point number 4

1. My siblings who in spite of the geographic distance and examination terror went out of their way to make my day special
2. My parents who did all to make me feel more special than everyday
3. Awesome friends for life who left office early just to party with me at home (sorry I wasn't up to real partying)
4. Those who got me the AMAZING Gucci bag :)(I am a spoilt south Delhi girl) AND those who got me an year's supply of books :) (The fact I like Gucci, doesn't mean I don't have brains lol)
5. Those who sent me flowers from across the city borders and across the country borders :) (white carnations or not :P)
6. The office guys who celebrated my birthday with two cakes and genuine smiles (Thanks to you I don't miss the shoppers stop vouchers given in my previous company with no genuine feeling & with fake smiles)
7. My boss who scolded me for straining and not resting (genuine respect & gratitude for you)
8. The doctor who couldn't really hide his irritation with me for visiting him for the third time in the last month even after he found out it was my birthday. Thanks for that :|
9.The people who called to wish and understood that it was tough for me to talk with no voice
10. The 120 people who wished me on facebook :)
11. Those people who remembered that it was my birthday and wished me dead because I did not eat the butter chicken you forced me to cook and many such things :P the feeling is not mutual though - I just wish you would move on from my thoughts and leave them alone... NOW
12. The people driving on MG road that day who gave my taxi a smooth ride to office and back

Thank you all...:) I feel blessed.

P.S. Forgive the typos if you can

No pain no gain

2011-08-22T00:58:00.000+05:30

So 7 days in the hospital tied to a bed gives someone a lot of time to think...and take some tough calls. Not really the most exciting time...no

The 8th day out of the hospital gives you freedom from the glucose drip but leaves you with something more undesirable...pain.

Not just ordinary pain - pain that they say might last some time. So what do you do? When you know you gotta deal with it anyway. You come up with a strategy.

You decide to ignore the pain, let it feel ashamed of even existing, make it feel so small and insignificant in front of your amazing appetite for life...that it slithers away to its far away hole, not unlike the cowardly bullies you come across in dozens these days.

And then when you stop feeling the pain...you thank the pain. You appreciate that it came in your life and added to your persistance and courage. Pain is after all a friend...you realize.

And...har ek friend zaroori hota hai :)

Khushi

2011-08-02T23:25:00.000+05:30

Andheron ki gahrayiyon mein

ujaale ki raah

Din ki dhoop mein chal kar

raat ki thandak ki aas

Shahar ke shor mein rehkar

sannate ki zaroorat

Sannaton mein waqt kaat kar

akelepan ka ehsas

Manzil badalti thi rehti

koshishen badhti hi rahti

bhatakte jo hum idhar

ikminan nahi aata magar

Khwayish jo puri to karte

par kambakth khushi kahan milti

khamakha uljhanein thi badti

Ek nayi raah par chaldiye jo hum

jahan khushi nahi ek manzil

khwayishon se nahi milti khushi

har pal hi ab hai khushi

har khoshish mein bhi khushi

khwayish bhi ab bas khushi

...

2011-07-23T13:05:00.000+05:30

ye khamoshi nahi chubhti ab

bas dhokhe ka dard rehta hai

ye dooriyan nahi dikhti ab

bas chupke se dil rota hai

apne aap ko samjhate hai hum

ki nahi the kisike hum dum

bas ek zakhm ke the marham

ab zakhm bhara to wajood bhi kam

mukaam

2011-07-16T21:59:00.001+05:30

Phirte rahte the hum
idhar udhar kahan kahan
dhoondte the mukaam
har jagah har jahan

Itni bhaga dodi mein
khud se thak gaye hum
aakhen kuch thi nam
par aas nai hui kam

hoslon mein naya hai dum
ek nayi disha jo dikhti ab
mukaam hi badal gaya jab
purani haar se bhi khush hai hum

Two years well spent

2011-07-09T11:40:00.000+05:30

Two years back

1. There are 'good people' who I want to be with, and there are 'bad people' who I want to avoid
2. Good planning and hard work is the key to everything. There is an age to settle down, to have kids, to travel the world, to be a grandmom etc etc. A planned life is the good life
3. I am a star - I can do anything I put my mind to
4. My intentions are good, why care about anything else

Now

1. Some good people make mistakes, and there are some who really know how to disguise the bad.
2. You could plan to the tee and give up everything else to achieve some things, but they would work only if they are meant to be.
3. I am not a star. I am a confident human being with limitations and sometimes failure teaches us the most important lessons. My confidence should be my strength and not a reason for anyone's discomfort
4. It is not what I am, but what I choose to be. It is my choice and not my intention that makes a difference.

Phewwww!

How can we thank them

2011-07-05T22:30:00.000+05:30

A voice that urges me to the safe shore
when I don't know where to go

A hand that holds me when I give up
helps me stand up again to start over

A song that wipes away the memories
and with that the tears they bring

A smile that brightens up my day
when all seems lost and empty

A promise that makes me go on
helps me take charge and be strong

A belief in me and my dreams
even in the midst of harsh storms

Unconditional love and such a big heart
how can I thank you Mom and Dad

Coming back to life

2011-06-11T23:20:00.003+05:30

Where were you when I was burned and broken

While the days slipped by from my window watching

Where were you when I was hurt and helpless

Because the things you say and the things you do surround me

While you were hanging yourself on someone else's words

Dying to believe in what you heard

I was staring straight into the shining sun

Lost in thought and lost in time

While the seeds of lifeand the seeds of change were planted

Outside the rain fell dark and slow

While I pondered on this dangerous but irresistible pastime

I took a heavenly ride through our silence

I knew the moment had arrived

For killing the past and coming back to life

I took a heavenly ride through our silence

I knew the waiting had begun

And headed straight..into the shining sun

So I guess it was not love

2011-06-05T09:48:00.000+05:30

The ones who love you will never leave you because even if there are hundred reasons to give up, they will find one reason to hold on...

ab peeche kuch nahi

2011-05-29T15:21:00.001+05:30

Bas aage hi dikhta hai
ab peeche kuch nahi
Itne sapne itni manzilein
bahut kuch paana hai abhi

chalte chalte socha hi nai
ki khushi apne mein hi hai
khudko dhoonda dusron mein
jo doosre apne the hi nahi

aankhen bhari to kya hua
fir se gir gayi to kya hua
paaya khudko fir se hai
aur ab chaahat khud se hi hai

bhaari need se to jaag gayi
par sapne abhi adhure hai
Bas aage aage hi chalna hai
ab peeche kuch nahi

Where is this era?

2011-05-23T21:51:00.002+05:30

Thanks

2011-05-08T19:56:00.001+05:30

‘‘Dance like no one is watching.Sing like no one is listening.Love like you've never been hurt and live life like it's heaven on Earth.’’ -Mark Twain

Hell, life is not perfect. Its wayyy off what I had thought it would be right now. Last two years have been fu***** hard. I fell hard. I learnt hard lessons. But you know what, I am happier now that I would have been if life had gone as planned. Suddenly so many new exciting possibilities, a fresh new confidence, a different way of thinking, greater belief in myself, renewed spirit...

I know my 'friends', I have a bigger mission, I have bigger dreams...

I thank with all my heart people who stuck by me...but more than that, I thank all of you who didn't..who left me when it mattered most, who did not have the courage to stand up by me, who lied, who were horrid to me, insulted me and hated my guts...I owe my bliss to you. Thanks!

So much to say

2011-05-02T13:07:00.000+05:30

So much to say in my head
I phrase and re-phrase
till it gets just perfect
I gather the courage
to have the conversation
Have to manage this time
with words I know

Too many walls to handle
too much pain to pierce

But I need that moment
to say to all
I need your ears
to hear it all
need you to open ur heart
to understand it all
I need you to break
the walls and to
give me a chance

oh yeah!

2011-04-23T00:02:00.001+05:30

The mystery behind
this curtain of suffering
no one knows
But I know that curtains hide
more than they reveal
So I suffer in silence
reverence
patience
faith

Complete belief that
this pain will polish my
courage
strength
wisdom

So won't let the curtain
engulf my spirit
matter of time before it lifts
darkness will be light
night will be dawn
shine I will again with
healing
peace
victory

There is unknown & then there is Marilyn Monroe

2011-04-17T00:20:00.002+05:30

Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it’s better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.
- Unknown

Moving on is simple, it’s what you leave behind that makes it so difficult.
- Unknown

It takes a couple seconds to say Hello, but forever to say Goodbye.
- Unknown

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."
— Marilyn Monroe

"A wise girl kisses but doesn't love, listens but doesn't believe, and leaves before she is left."
— Marilyn Monroe

"If you're gonna be two-faced at least make one of them pretty."
— Marilyn Monroe

"She was a girl who knew how to be happy even when she was sad. And that’s important—you know "
— Marilyn Monroe

"This life is what you make it. No matter what, you're going to mess up sometimes, it's a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you're going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - they'll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything - they're your true best friends. Don't let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well, they'll come and go too. And babe, I hate to say it, most of them - actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can't give up becuase if you give up, you'll never find your soul mate. You'll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn't mean you're gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don't, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about."
— Marilyn Monroe

"We should all start to live before we get too old. Fear is stupid. So are regrets."
— Marilyn Monroe

What's my mission

2011-04-07T13:56:00.000+05:30

"'Not taking a decision' is also a form taking the decision of not deciding." remarked a colleague about our respected PM in a discussion on the sheer courage of Anna Hazare and the movement he has started. This statement really struck home

I am so proud of the nation who is supporting this movement through and through, and I feel lucky that I am here & I have the opportunity to do my bit. Though most people will call me a person of a conviction when it comes to social matters, I am realizing the importance of having a clear mission which would add in me the essential ingredient of courage. It is this mission that will make taking tough decisions and sticking to them easier. Wish me luck...I have started on the journey of self discovery

Chaos & Ruin

2011-04-07T11:57:00.000+05:30

"Maybe my life hasn't been so chaotic. It's just the world that is and the only real trap is getting attached to any of it. Ruin is a gift. Ruin is the road to transformation." -Eat. Pray. Love

This is what Elizabeth Gilbert realized when she sat in the ruins of Rome. I didn't really understand this when I read it almost a year back. After a lot of internal churning, reading, discussion and prayer; I realize now what she did in Rome. To put a stop to the chaos in the environment around me, I need to clean the chaos inside me first.

Neeta is gone

2011-04-03T22:33:00.000+05:30

Neeta is gone, free from the painful existance. Prayed for her beautiful soul.

To the Indian Cricket Team

2011-04-02T23:56:00.000+05:30

Dear team

Congrats for this awesome win!

You have won the world cup yes, but more than that you have won the love & respect of Indians across the world. Was wondering if it is winning the worldcup that gives you most happiness, or winning over the devil of 'giving in to pressure' troubling the individual minds that is the REAL BIG WIN?
Is it so much the external victory, or winning the internal struggle that gives us the most peace and satisfaction?

Thanks to you - April 2nd 2011 stands for the day of victory of faith over doubt, of effort over stress & of sheer balls over cowardice.

Thanks for giving us the memory of this day! A BIG salute!!

I love the way you lie

2011-04-01T21:50:00.000+05:30

Thought for the day

2011-04-01T15:00:00.001+05:30

An interesting conversation with a colleague today has led to the following trail of thought:-

I'm always surprised by the way marriage is touted as the end-all-and-be-all for women, and by the way some people feel that the only proper path to personal fulfillment begins at the altar.

"We agreed on one simple rule: For every time I said "no" to my husband because of work, I'd say "no" to my boss because of my husband," my colleague explains. "I credit my husband for his patience and the support I needed to recognize that career advancement came at the cost of individual integrity."

One has to wonder: Did her husband follow a similar rule? Is his "individual integrity" tied to marriage -- or threatened by his career?

And therein lies the crux of the problem: No matter how far we've advanced, or how well we can juggle, there's still this assumption that a woman who is committed to her husband and family can't be equally committed to her job. And vice versa.

Are more women agreeing with the assumption?

A letter to my (future) kids

2011-03-25T12:59:00.000+05:30

My (future) kids

(Disclaimer: I am NOT going bonkers. Not yet anyway. I just think too much)

Kids, you must be wondering how I have accomplished so much in my life? How I am still full of energy, and how I'm not tired of struggling?

I wouldn't be able to think of an answer then. Not a satisfactory one anyway, and I might think of a suitable one in retrospect. To avoid that situation in my future, I have thought of the answer now :D

I think a lot of it has to do with how a person looks at things. I call it 'keeping your eyes wide open.'

First, realize that life is filled with surprises, but many are good ones. If you don't keep watching for them, you'll miss half the excitement. Expect to be thrilled once in a while, and you will be.

When you meet up with challenges, welcome them. They'll leave you wiser, stronger, and more capable than you were the day before. When you make a mistake, be grateful for the things it taught you. Resolve to use that lesson to help you reach your goals.

And always follow the rules. Even the little ones. When you follow the rules, life works. If you think you ever really get by with breaking the rules, you're only fooling yourself.

It's also important to decide exactly what you want. Then keep your mind focused on it, and be prepared to receive it.

But be ready to end up in some new places too. As you grow with the years, you'll be given bigger shoes to fill. So be ready for endings as well as challenging beginnings.

Sometimes we have to be brave enough to move from the familiar to the unfamiliar. Life isn't just reaching peaks. Part of it is moving from one peak to the next. If you rest too long in between, you might be tempted to quit. Leave the past in the past. Climb the next mountain and enjoy the view.

Dump things that weigh you down emotionally and spiritually. When an old resentment, belief, or attitude becomes heavy, lighten your load. Shed those hurtful attitudes that slow you down and drain your energy.

Remember that your choices will create your successes and your failures. So consider all the pathways ahead, and decide which ones to follow. Then believe in yourself, get up, and get going.

And be sure to take breaks once in a while. They'll give you a renewed commitment to your dreams and a cheerful, healthy perception of the things that matter the most to you.

Most important of all, never give up on yourself. The person that ends up a winner is the one who resolves to win. Give life everything you've got, and life will give its best back to you.

(I hope my kids would want to read my blog?)

by Manvi Sushil :)

2011-03-18T10:07:00.000+05:30

When I saw how more can be so less, I started seeing more in less

- Manvi Sushil :)

Choices vs. Fate

2011-03-16T10:09:00.000+05:30

Once in awhile, I ponder the question of whether a different choice in life would have drastically changed my outcome. And I often wonder, do we really have choices or are we destined by fate?
Perhaps there is such a thing as reincarnation, where the laws of the universe work whether you believe in them or not; where karma is dealt to our particular situations because of what we have done or not done, good or bad. This also includes the idea that 'like attracts like' and any negative or positive energies we release toward others bounces back to us a hundred times greater.

I remember what my dad used to tell me, "Be careful what you think and what you say!" He believes that any negative energy (like hatred or anger) would quickly tie you to that person in a next life, so that both parties must come back to work it out. What a perfect way to receive punishments and rewards for our bad or good deeds.

So, getting back to choices vs. fate, I realize that certain situations in my life have caused me to choose certain paths - whether I was trying to get away from a bad situation or whether a particular choice just appealed to me more. The key thing to understand, though, is that it isn't so much the choice (because no matter what we choose, it has a way of working out to what we need to learn anyway) it is the way we reacted to the situation that is the real issue. How we 'choose' to react is far more important than the choices we make.

You can't avoid problems in life. Every time you try to go around them, they meet you in the face. You have to go through them and deal with them in order to get rid of them.

This is part of what it means to 'live in the present'. Deal with it, good or bad, and you won't have to deal with it again, but try to avoid it or fight it, and you will find yourself in an unhappy and long struggle until you're ready to accept it as it is. Allow 'what is' to 'be'. Any resistance on your part just prolongs your suffering.

Do I believe in fate? To a certain extent I do. I believe that we are put here to learn lessons, and we have to keep coming back until we get it right. We are born into the very situations we need in order to learn what we must learn. But once again, it is how we react that is the key to getting us out of our own hell. How we react is the key to turning our fates around. That's when great things start to happen in your life - miracles that you might not ever have experienced had you not learned the lesson you were dealt.

And do I believe we have choices? Oh, yes! But only if we are ready for them... only if we can change our negatives into positives do we get some choices that lead us out of our self-imposed dungeon of sorrow.

The key: How we react determines our happiness, our fate, and our choices. So, start by putting those positive energies out there and watch the magic happen! Greet hatred with love, violence with peace. Judge not. Love thy enemy and pray for his happiness.

I am my own prince

2011-03-10T10:04:00.000+05:30

It is the most depressing conclusion that any girl could have reached.

I am my own prince.

Just need that dumb armour now

I am a super woman

2011-03-08T12:06:00.000+05:30

Danced in the heavy rain
when most ran to seek shelter
Smiled with courage even when
the heart was heavy and tears close
Walked with my head held high
everyday without fail
Took the harshness in my stride
marched on with hope in my eyes
The world just watched

My tears are not my weakness
my pain is not my enemy
my insecurities are not my vice
my faults are not my walls
Nothing stops me from winning
My beauty is in my faith
my energy in my spirit
my love in my honesty
my imperfection is my identity
I love myself no matter what
The world will now watch

lost?

2011-02-28T00:09:00.000+05:30

Is everything lost? is it time to accept defeat?

A leaf out of my book

2011-02-27T12:03:00.000+05:30

Life is like a stuck record

where love is marred with conditions

Till death do us apart is nothing

where vows are just words

where relationships are paper

that can be written off

when NPAs they become

Relationships are entertainment

they make it last as long as it's fun

walk out when it isn't

At all of twenty five

if there is anything I have learnt

is don't trust someone who says

we'll die together & not before eighty

who says they'll keep it together

'In sickness and in health'

They like to play games

don't give them what they want

they will walk out when you don't suspect

and you think they love you no matter what

wow lyrics

2011-02-27T11:34:00.000+05:30

Don't give up hope

2011-02-23T06:13:00.000+05:30

From time to time, life can look hopeless.

To help you, consider a man who lived through this:

Failed in business at age 31.
Defeated for the legislature at 32.
Again failed in business at 34.
Sweetheart died at 35.
Had a nervous breakdown at 36.
Defeated in election at 38.
Defeated for Congress at 43.
Defeated for Congress at 46.
Defeated for Congress at 48.
Defeated for Senate at 55.
Defeated for Vice President at 56.
Defeated for Senate at 58.
Elected President at age 60.

This man was Abraham Lincoln

hmmm

2011-02-16T22:29:00.002+05:30

kahin jeet mein bhi shamil pal pal haar hai

Smile a bit today (NO MATTER WHAT!!!)

2011-02-15T08:46:00.000+05:30

Everyone is fighting a battle inside and wishes for happiness. Including the guy who overtakes you rashly from the left giving you a dirty look (especially seeing you are a woman at the wheel), and even the lady in the BMW wearing Gucci & with her perfectly manicured nails! All of them wish something was different and all of them hope that things will change.

Some really cool people who have done some great stuff have written about happiness & sadness:-

Carl Gustav Jung
The word 'happiness' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness.
Proverb
If you see a friend without a smile; give him one of yours.
John Sutherland Bonnell
So much sadness exists in the world that we are all under obligation to contribute as much joy as lies within our powers.
Sidney Madwed
You can choose to be happy or sad and whichever you choose that is what you get. No one is really responsible to make someone else happy, no matter what most people have been taught and accept as true.
Henry Wordsworth Longfellow
Every man has his secret sorrows which the world knows not; and often times we call a man cold when he is only sad.
Louis E. Boone
Don't fear failure so much that you refuse to try new things. The saddest summary of a life contains three descriptions: could have, might have, and should have.
Malcolm X
Usually when people are sad, they don't do anything. They just cry over their condition. But when they get angry, they bring about a change.
Jim Rohn
How sad to see a father with money and no joy. The man studied economics, but never studied happiness.
William Osler
Courage and cheerfulness will not only carry you over the rough places in life, but will enable you to bring comfort and help to the weak-hearted and will console you in the sad hours.
Mark Twain
It is a time when one's spirit is subdued and sad, one knows not why; when the past seems a storm-swept desolation, life a vanity and a burden, and the future but a way to death.
Winston Churchill
When I look back on all these worries, I remember the story of the old man who said on his deathbed that he had had a lot of trouble in his life, most of which had never happened.
Christina Georgina Rossetti
Better by far you should forget and smile than that you should remember and be sad.
David Weatherford
We enjoy warmth because we have been cold. We appreciate light because we have been in darkness. By the same token, we can experience joy because we have known sadness.
R. W. Dale
We ask God to forgive us for our evil thoughts and evil temper, but rarely, if ever ask Him to forgive us for our sadness.
Helen Keller
I seldom think about my limitations, and they never make me sad. Perhaps there is just a touch of yearning at times; but it is vague, like a breeze among flowers.
Jim Rohn
The walls we build around us to keep out the sadness also keep out the joy.
Marcus Aurelius
Reject your sense of injury and the injury itself disappears.
Cynthia Nelms
Nobody really cares if you're miserable, so you might as well be happy.
Carl Jung
There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness.
Thomas Fuller
An ounce of cheerfulness is worth a pound of sadness to serve God with.
Dante
There is no greater sorrow than to recall in misery the time when we were happy.
Jean de La Fontaine
Sadness flies away on the wings of time.
Charlie Brown
In the book of life, the answers aren’t in the back.

worth the wait

2011-02-11T09:33:00.000+05:30

Dreams are not just plain lies
whispered in the calm of night
they are not a mere illusion
appearing in the oasis of mind

They are meant to come true
however hard it may seem
Important to keep the faith
and it will be worth the wait

I love....

2011-02-03T15:25:00.000+05:30

...Delhi!! :-)

trapped

2011-01-26T15:13:00.000+05:30

''My life flashes before me, again and again, but I turn away, choosing not to see. All around me are reflections of my own bewilderment. I simply go on walking blindly, in this endless maze, trapped in lonely games, choosing not to see. How well I've learned to avoid myself. Isn't it time I looked? Perhaps it is time, to seek a rendezvous with myself.'

Not good enough

2011-01-19T06:20:00.000+05:30

Can't believe that people lie simply, just for the heck of it. Everyone has a good reason, a good justification for a lie.

But no good reason for a lie is ever good enough. Period.

Welcome 2011

2011-01-08T13:17:00.000+05:30

The year of putting the pieces together
making sure they stay together forever
The year of seperating anger from love
by focussing on only the love
The year of erasing dark memories
replacing with enlightenment from within
The year of destroying all expectations
loving my own self all over again
The year of first forgiving myself
and being at complete peace inside
The year of moving foward again
one step at a time slow but steady
The year of trusting my own instinct
and restoring confidence in myself
The year of embracing life with its faults
and being happy no matter what

Sleepless

2010-12-29T14:06:00.000+05:30

In front of my laptop I sit
A load of work to complete
My eyes can't help but flutter
Not with a naughty plan
like they once did
but with grand waves of sleep
And yes here I go again
Sleepless in the the night

These eyes stare into space
and go back in time
Trying to make method
of all this madness
Trying to find answers
of innumerous questions
Trying to search for truth
in the darkness of sleepless nights

:S

2010-12-22T18:43:00.002+05:30

Stand there with your arms open and say, "What storms may come - let them. I am here." You grow out of them. You become bigger.

troubled questions

2010-12-22T13:21:00.002+05:30

Is life about being very convinient/ just having fun or about being a person of worth even it means struggle?

What is better - being honest to people you care for or being nice to them so that they keep on liking you?

Which is easier - being heartbroken or pretending everything is fine when it isn't?

Is being honest about what you are going through to save yourself equal to reaching out for forced sympathy?

Does everything in this world boil down to just being a piece of paper?

~Ayn Rand~

2010-12-18T20:55:00.000+05:30

I swear, by my life and my love of it, that I will never live for the sake of another man, nor ask another man to live for mine.

It only stands to reason that where there's sacrifice, there's someone collecting the sacrificial offerings. Where there's service, there is someone being served. The man who speaks to you of sacrifice is speaking of slaves and masters, and intends to be the master.

The year gone by

2010-12-03T18:23:00.000+05:30

Let me be honest
and let me confess
The year gone by

Has not been the best
Saw a side of me emerge
I would have been
better off not knowing
Met some people
I would have been
better off not meeting
Made huge mistakes
not once but many times
Fell off and hurt myself
more than those many times
Shed tears like a leaky tap
Cursed the world in despair
Cried to the Gods in prayer
Resolved to shrug this off
Promised to move the hell on
Failed miserably in this war
Felt defeated and weak
Really struggled to smile

Let me be honest

and let me confess
The year gone by
Has not been the best
happily I wish it good bye

U just think...

2010-11-22T17:29:00.000+05:30

You just think...
That you have forgiven
the pain is there but faint
but when the moment comes
the anger & bitterness returns

You just think...
That you have forgotten
the memories are now gone
but they come back in full force
from the depths of your mind

You just think...
That you are healing
the tears have now dried
but in the darkness of the night
eyes well up & you don't know why

You just think...
That everything will be fine
even if things still pull you down
and you still let tears fall
you never give up & never go down

just a comma

2010-11-19T16:03:00.000+05:30

It's just a comma
I pause for breadth
Enjoy the silence
Hear myself think
for a change!

It's just a speedbreaker
Saying slow down girl
Is this where you wana go?
Focus on your destination
Don't waver!

It's just an accident
To make me realize
The importance of life
Life has not stopped
Live on!

It's not the end
Is it ever the end?
A new life awaits
with new challenges
Bring them on!

Diwali

2010-11-06T11:08:00.000+05:30

A festival marking the end of a dark period & the start of illumination and joy - is a representation of how any moment can be THE moment of change and resolve. A moment when you decide to push away the darkness, and decide to forgive with pain as your guide.You decide to use your pain as a reminder of your strength and let it guide you to some inner joy.

Yesterday I did this - I let my pain guide me to true happiness. Attended two Pujas, chanted for an hour, made a beautiful rangoli with diyas and decorated the temple with flowers and lights. And I slept a contended sleep after a long time.

And I realize that this one happy day does not mean I will suddenly become the happy person that everyone knew. I still feel the familiar pang of pain. I still feel the restless sadness reaching out to devour my mind and heart. I have miles to go in this struggle to be happy. But I have realized that I can't defeat pain and sadness by fighting them. The only way I can defeat them is by making them my friend, by winning over them and by loving them for what they are.

Pain and Sadness are my friends. I am at peace with them. And like yesterday, they will lead me to peace someday and maybe I will be a happy person again.

Happy Diwali

Winds of Change

2010-10-30T17:07:00.000+05:30

Winds of Change
Are blowin my way
I can really feel them
Gushin past my face

Fierce and harsh
relentless in war
I fear I will fall
when they gush past

Three ways in my head
of dealing with the winds
of change that never
seem to accept defeat

One, I move away
I escape the pain
I run at the sound
and news of the wind

Two, I make walls
around me as a shield
Isolate myself in
Avoid the hurt winds bring

Or, I cease being lean
The winds only affect
the very weak and so
being strong is solution three

Self reflection

2010-10-28T12:10:00.000+05:30

The best part about Self Reflection is that you don't get too much time to see the faults of others. You are too busy being perfect.

Conflict

2010-10-21T14:02:00.001+05:30

My heart is in pain, but my soul is uplifted. I did the right thing and that's what really matters.

More often than not - there is less conflict between the head and the heart, it's more between the heart and the soul. It's more important to look after your soul since the heart will someday stop beating anyways.

Connecting the dots

2010-10-18T10:22:00.000+05:30

Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something - your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life. - Steve Jobs

:)

2010-10-12T12:13:00.002+05:30

If the weather everywhere becomes ok forever, then 8 out of 10 people will never be able to start a conversation :)

A small prayer

2010-10-11T00:26:00.000+05:30

For things to work out for the best

For life to get to a point of no regret

For courage, wisdom and healing

For forgiveness and the willingness

To forget things that just cause pain

To lose this really painful baggage

To drop off this burden of mistrust

To give life and living another chance

Thank You

2010-10-10T09:31:00.000+05:30

Even though I keep my eyes closed for the longest time in the morning, I know I should be thankful - for there are so many who are blind and can't see at all.

Even though the first hour of my day is hectic; when tiffins are being packed, things are lost and tempers are high - Thank you God for my family, there are so many who have no one.

Even though my breakfast table never looks like that perfect picture in a magazine - Thank you for whatever I have God, there are so many who die without food.

Even though I crib, grumble and moan about the circumstances in my life and wish that things were different - Thank you God...for LIFE.

well said

2010-10-07T17:52:00.003+05:30

Kahlil Gibran, the poet, tells us sorrow and joy are inseparable. In order for us to experience pure delight, one has to also experience the opposite.

"Your joy is your sorrow unmasked.
And the selfsame well from which your laughter rises was oftentimes filled with your tears."

Once upon a day

2010-10-05T14:36:00.001+05:30

Once upon a day
there was nothing to say
I stared into space
struggling to understand
that how people get sleep
and how they don't weep

Without a conscience
without a single wince
How can they simply lie
and how can they ever smile
All along I was fearful of the
outside big bad world

Little I knew how much
intertwined I already was
With what I feared the most
and all along didn't know
It was my foolishness to
assume it to be my friend

How does life atone
how does one know
Who is really to trust
I will never forget the way
how nothing was left to say
once upon a day

A whole new world

2010-10-01T13:38:00.001+05:30

A whole new world
of possibilities galore
of renewed optimism
being confident and sure
And of wanting more

A whole new world
of shattered dreams giving way
to a new and fresh life
I reach for the stars
and let go of prejudice

A whole new world
of gratitude and no regret
I count my blessings
and pray hard for old demons
to go far far away

Blasphemous but true

2010-09-22T20:58:00.001+05:30

"I'll tell you a little secret, something that they don't teach you at your temples. The Gods envy us, because we are mortals.Any moment could be our last , and everything becomes more beautiful because we are doomed"

- Achilles to Briseis

:(

2010-09-22T10:30:00.002+05:30

I hate being sick :'( :'( :'(

Questions

2010-09-22T07:54:00.000+05:30

Are tears an indicator of weakness? Yes,they certainly indicate pain and hurt. But is pain a sign of weakness? Even with so much pain, if you still do the right thing - isn't it forbearance? Or will you call forbearance too a sign of weakness? Think about it. In pain and anger - what is your first reaction? If you fight that first reaction and still stick around to face the blows, what are you? Weak?

love

2010-09-19T23:46:00.000+05:30

You might feel that

your lies have won

You might run away

from your conscience

You might lift fingers

and discolor another

You might have made

a fool out of others

But there is one thing

you cannot do ever

You cannot touch love

it will delude you forever

Love will never succumb

Love cannot be fooled

It cannot be deceived

nor it will be defeated

It will always prevail

your dirt will never soil it

Hide if you should

but love will find the truth

haspslephofp

2010-09-19T00:10:00.002+05:30

I am really one! :)

hmmm

2010-09-14T22:32:00.003+05:30

The silence isn't so bad, 'Til I look at my hands and feel sad 'Cause the spaces between my fingers are right where yours fit perfectly

Rain :)

2010-09-12T16:28:00.000+05:30

The beauty of rain is such that

it washes the dirt away

Reveals the purity of the world

there is freshness in every way

I love dancing in the rain

want it to wash away the pain

Reveal the child in my soul again

for happiness to find a place

Super Cool Quote

2010-09-11T17:56:00.000+05:30

“Confront the dark parts of yourself, and work to banish them with illumination and forgiveness. Your willingness to wrestle with your demons will cause your angels to sing. Use the pain as fuel, as a reminder of your strength.”

Full Circle

2010-09-06T23:45:00.000+05:30

They say life comes a full circle. I just want to tell life not to scream and gloat when it does. Whoever the joke is on - I just don't want to know. I want to leave the pieces and move on. But the irony is that to move on, I need to hang on now. To hang on, I feel the need to cling on to something. What do I cling to? I don't want to drown in all the muddy water...

amazing lyrics

2010-09-05T21:36:00.000+05:30

Awaarapaan Banjarapaan
Ek Hala Hai Sine Mein
Har Dam Har Pal Bechaini Hai
Kaun Bhala Hai Seene Mein
Is Dharti Par Jis Pal Suraj
Roz Savere Ugta Hai
Is Dharti Par Jis Pal Suraj
Roz Savere Ugta Hai
Apne Liye To Thik Usi Pal
Roz Dhala Hai Seene Mein
Awaarapaan Banjarapaan
Ek Hala Hai Sine Mein
Jaane Yeh Kaisi Aag Lagi Hai
Is Mein Dhua Na Chingari
Jane Yeh Kaisi Aag Lagi Hai
Is Mein Dhua Na Chingari
Ho Na Ho Us Par Kahin Koi
Khwaab Jala Hai Seene Mein
Awaarapaan Banjarapaan
Ek Hala Hai Sine Mein
Jis Raste Par Tapta Suraj
Sari Raat Nahi Dhalta
Jis Raste Par Tapta Suraj
Sari Raat Nahi Dhalta
Ishq Ki Aise Raha Guzar Ko
Hum Ne Chuna Hai Seene Mein
Awaarapaan Banjarapaan
Ek Hala Hai Sine Mein
Kahan Kise Ke Liye Hai Mumkin
Sab Ke Liye Ek Sa Hona
Kahan Kise Ke Liye Hai Mumkin
Sab Ke Liye Ek Sa Hona
Thoda Sa Dil Mera Bura Hai
Thoda Bhala Hai Seene Mein
Awaarapaan Banjarapaan
Ek Hala Hai Sine Mein

!

2010-09-03T16:10:00.001+05:30

I want to give up the fight
nothing seems worthwhile
Don't know how am going on
Want this painful life to stop

Can I escape without
being called a coward
Can I run away without
causing pain to another

Can I wash away the pain
there has to be a way
there has to be a day
when the tears will go away

I know my prayers are sincere
Then why is this test so hard
I know God you are very much there
Please turn this endless night into day

On and On

2010-09-03T00:13:00.000+05:30

It just never ends
the torture of memory
it's like a reel that starts
without permission and
it just goes on and on

It just never stops
the pang in my heart
it's like a wound that bleeds
without healing and the pain
it just goes on and on

It just never ends
the emptiness of loss
like a hollow vessel that echoes
without any respite, my misery
just goes on and on

I don't know

2010-09-01T17:47:00.001+05:30

Where is my life heading

Where did it go wrong

I don't know

Why did life take this turn

Why did I trust too much

I don't know

Why did I bear so much wrong

Why did I compromise so much

I don't know

What makes me hope against hopen

What keeps me going

I don't know

What will happen next

Why don't I have my answers

I don't know

Thank you Bro

2010-08-24T21:19:00.000+05:30

Times got tough and you sang 'All is Well'
You asked no questions and gave no suggestions
Stood silently watching out for my tears
You had a joke ready to try and make me smile
I am not sure what my response then was
But I want to say thanks now that it is the time
When sisters all over the world ask for a promise
I am proud that my kid brother is no longer a kid
He is a grown boy who knows more than his years

Thank you Bro for being there, and today
I pray that you grow up to be a worthy man
Pray that you have the wisdom and courage
to stand up when the time needs you to stand
Believe in yourself and win many true friends
I pray you never get bogged down by pain
Be a winner and become a person of strength
I wish for never ending happiness for you
God will bless you~

No Subject

2010-08-20T22:46:00.000+05:30

Of all the lies you ever told, that you'll be honest hurt the most.

Voices from the past

2010-08-18T01:10:00.000+05:30

Voices from the past
Come back to me so fast
Vows made in the dark
Have left deep scars

They come back with effect
I hear things I want to forget
Good, Bad or Ugly they are
Words that stung my heart

I closed my ears but it didn't help
Recollected how everyday I wept
Then felt pity for the spineless pet
The voices then away they went

Deep's speech

2010-08-15T13:51:00.000+05:30

Deep, in his speech at Nasdaq quoted Mahatma Gandhi's quote that Deep's father in law had sent him the same morning

"First they ignore you, then they laugh at you, then they fight you and then you win."

He said that he, Keyur, Sachin and Rajesh as co-founders of MakeMyTrip had encountered a lot of non believers on their way along with a handful of believers. He thanked the believers - those with him in NY at that time and those in India watching and rejoicing in their moment of victory.

You know what was I thinking when Deep was saying these words? I was thinking that by mentioning these non believers in his Nasdaq speech - Deep was in a way thanking them for their lack of faith in him which I can imagine really challenged and urged him on further. I could totally identify with the feeling of how sometimes people & incidents really shake the core of your being by their open challenge and strengthen your resolve further.

I really respect Deep Kalra for acknowledging that in front of the entire world. It takes deep courage, true strength and humility for thanking people who didn't stick by you when it really mattered.

Fairy Tale Incomplete

2010-08-14T22:07:00.000+05:30

A little girl of six she was when

her mother would read out fairy tales

of a pretty princess in a dress

who would be won by a prince

after fighting much distress

How she loved these fairy tales

where the norm was happily ever after

where life and love were simple

'its complicated' status would not occur

She waited and waited for her prince

and like a fool she didn't think

that these tales could be false

these stories could be for fools

She found out the hard way

and felt her identity slipping away

Her heart still does not believe

that her fairy tale stays incomplete

You are a weed

2010-08-14T00:01:00.000+05:30

I want to quit thinking of you as big
In my life there is no place for pigs
Because you are nothing but a weed
u are teeny weeny and will leave

From my memories from my heart
from every where that matters
you don't deserve this heart burn
I don't deserve to be battered

I can stand up I always could
though you wanted me to fall
I agree I tripped over your feet
but no power can keep me down

They said I can't do anything
I can't fly without any wings
I heard all that but I disagree
your sneaky push really freed me

The circle of life will haunt someday
For justice everyday I pray
I will strike back in my own way
I will fly high up and you will wait

Yes, I am a woman

2010-08-12T23:47:00.000+05:30

"There is in every true woman's heart, a spark of heavenly fire, which lies dormant in the broad daylight of prosperity, but which kindles up and beams and blazes in the dark hour of adversity."

“Because I am a woman, I must make unusual efforts to succeed. If I fail, no one will say, "She doesn't have what it takes"; They will say, "Women don't have what it takes"

“Nobody objects to a woman being a good writer or sculptor or geneticist if at the same time she manages to be a good wife, good mother, good looking, good tempered, well groomed and unaggressive”

“I will never be the woman with the perfect hair, who can wear white and not spill on it.”

“[He considers me] just a uterus with legs.”

Just a minute

2010-08-10T22:26:00.001+05:30

When you are at the moment when suddenly the world seems to close in on you, and you feel so so suffocated that you really think what you did to deserve this - you wonder if life is worth all the trouble. You wonder if it makes sense retaining the good in you, especially when you have already been tried for the crimes you didn't commit.

Take a minute then.

Be very selfish in that whole minute. Think about yourself, think about your dreams, think about your people who are waiting for you at home, think about people who have been there for you unflinchingly - and in that moment you will feel complete unquestioned gratitude to life.

The best part? It takes just a minute. And a minute can bring back a smile on your face, the spring in your step, the twinkle in your eye and the hope in your heart.

How

2010-08-07T13:12:00.000+05:30

How can I forgive

If I can't forget

I just cling to

the past and I regret

The ugly haunt

the pleasant torment

both memories drive me

crazy and I can't forget

How can I forgive

If I can't forget

I just cling to

the past and I regret

I rewind and play

all memories everyday

poison doesn't go away

for healing I pray

How do I forgive

How do I forget

Escape the pain

and feel free again

Sometimes...

2010-08-05T16:08:00.002+05:30

Sometimes it takes being broken to know just how good it feels to be whole again. Sometimes you need to swallow a shit load of pride, and just let your actions speak louder than not only your words but also others' noise.

Sometimes you need to have losers get the satisfaction of feeling victorious after their really shallow display of wickedness, just to feel happy with your own goodness of not falling to their level. Sometimes it is important to lose a battle to win the war called life. Sometimes it is important to have your existence challenged, just to break the inertia, march forward and prove yourself.

Sometimes you need to really know what being shattered feels, you really need to taste the pain - just to appreciate the blessings in your life. Sometimes you just have to pray for the happiness of those who wronged you, for the sake of loving your own self.

And it is always important to love your own self. No matter what.

It is only then you can even expect to be truly loved by another.

bring it on

2010-08-03T11:23:00.000+05:30

If you thought you could break me
let me tell you, you were wrong
You have only sought to make me
more determined to reach more heights
so where you going, bring it on

Trust is broken, but my spirit is not
I have pledged to keep marching on
I don't hate, but I sure don't give a damn
Don't get misled by my slight frame
so where you going, bring it on

It's not new

2010-08-02T13:13:00.001+05:30

It's not new. Throughout the centuries there were people who took first steps down new roads armed with nothing but their own vision.

Their goals differed, but they all had this in common: that the step was first, the road new, the vision unborrowed, and the response they received -- hatred. And sometimes hatred from those they counted on most.

The great creators -- the thinkers, the artists, the scientists, the inventors -- they all stood alone against the men & women of their time. But these people of unborrowed vision went ahead.

They fought, they suffered and they paid.

But they won.

:(

2010-07-31T13:56:00.001+05:30

You can learn more from failure than success. In failure you’re forced to find out what part did not work. But in success you can believe everything you did was great, when in fact some parts may not have worked at all. Failure forces you to face reality.

You just have to be prepared for a very painful reality. Painful not only when weaknesses you have been trying to ignore in others come in plain view, but also weaknesses in your self, things you never knew existed suddenly become very plain to your own self.

Facing your own limitations is the most painful task of all, because this relevation easily leads to underconfidence and low self belief. How do I stay confident knowing I have so many limitations? And how do I overcome my weaknesses without confidence? How do I ignore this deep deep regret and pain, that cuts across my being in every vulnerable moment? My faith tells me I am on the right track, because I am finally listening to my intuition. But how do I be sure?

A time

2010-07-28T10:55:00.000+05:30

For everything there is a season,
And a time for every matter under heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to throw away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to seek, and a time to lose;
A time to keep, and a time to throw away;
A time to tear, and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate,
A time for war, and a time for peace

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

Gone with the Wind!

2010-07-26T22:52:00.000+05:30

One of my favorite books has a line which I've always felt a connection to. And now I even know why...

It was so that I could use it and really mean it. And here it goes...

Frankly my dear , I don't give a damn...

Snap

2010-07-17T15:02:00.002+05:30

How quickly a moment of love can be snapped away to a moment of hate. One thoughtless action, one careless word, one seemingly harmless lie, one misunderstood intention, one wrong advisor can steal it all away. How love and hate stand on the same foundations. How quickly can comfort with someone turn into awkwardness. How in the very second you reach a dead end, moments when you know which direction your life is going to - are altered. A realization in less than a second. A flicker of deja vu. Like you knew it all along.

How in my darkest moments, my most fearful times, when faced - become my bravest. When feeling at your weakest you end up showing more strength, when at your lowest you are suddenly lifted above higher than you've ever been. They all border one other, these opposites, and how quickly they can be altered.

Despair can be altered by one simple smile offered by a stranger; confidence can become fear by the arrival of uneasy presence. Just as a kid, when me and my sister would waver on the balance beam in the park, and in an instance our excitement would turn into pain.Everything is on the verge, always brimming the surface and a slight shake, a tremble sends things toppling. How delicate emotions are. Light so quickly becomes darkness around. Always seems like the answers I find just moments ago become questions again.

Light and Pitch black. Pitch Black and Light.

A thin veil hangs between these two opposites, a mere slip of a thing that is transparent to warn us or comfort us.You are happy now, but you know that spring won't last forever. Experience has taught you that. You are in the look out for warning signs. Or you hate now but you see through the veil and you see the possibility of love; you're sad now but you look through the veil and and see happiness.

Absolute composure to a complete mess (and hopefully even the opposite) - it happens so quickly, all in the blink of an eye.

"Perfer et obdura, dolor hic tibi proderit olim" - latin for " Be patient and tough, someday this pain will be useful to you"

Tujhase naaraaz nahi

2010-07-13T22:17:00.003+05:30

Tujhase naaraaz nahi zindagi, hairaan hoon main
o hairaan hoon main
tere masoom savalon se pareshaan hooN main
o pareshaan hoon main

jeene ke liye socha hi na tha, dard sambhalane honge
muskuraoon to, muskurane ke karz utaarne honge
muskuraoon kabhi to lagata hai
jaise hontonn pe karz rakhaa hai
tujhase ...

aaj agar bhar ayi hai, boondein baras jaayengi
kal kya pata inke liye aakhen taras jayengi
jaane kahan gum kahan khoya
ek aansu chhupake rakha tha
tujhase ...

zindagi tere gum ne hamain rishte naye samajhaye
mile jo hamain dhoop main mile chhaanv ke thande saaye

My second hour at the NGO

2010-07-12T18:54:00.003+05:30

I did say I will go back. Well, I do usually stick to my words. (Yes, I am proud of this and I should be - since I have very recently realized this is not that common an attribute, actually far from it)

Well, my second visit was a little more eventful.It was sad, but I have more food for thought.

She had asked about me just two - three days back (Well, this was not a miracle. I had been sending her some stuff I thought she might like to receive) and she actually smiled when she saw me. The smile was beautiful. I hadn't seen such a genuine smile for ages. That smile said so many things to me, and I couldn't even begin to imagine how much pain the smile had to pierce through just to appear. I will never forget that smile. Genuine. Pure. Heart Wrenching.

She then told me she had just a few months to live - 6 max if she was lucky.Didn't know what to say. The serenity of her face didn't help. I decided to ask her what I really wanted to - if she was afraid. She then looked at me like she was looking through me, like there was something she understood, something that just clicked in her head. She then did a very surprising thing - she reached out for my hand, gave it a squeeze and said "dar mat" (Don't be afraid). It was like my question had communicated a lot more to her than I had intended.I knew instantly that was intended for me. And there I was, trying to make her open up to me, when she was the one reading me all this while!

I hadn't felt that connected to anyone in years. She is something, that woman.With one smile and one answer, she had given me so much strength.Thank You Neeta.

So said Einstein

2010-07-11T20:41:00.001+05:30

"Not everything that counts can be counted, and not everything that can be counted counts."

"Great spirits have always found violent opposition from mediocrities. The latter cannot understand it when a man does not thoughtlessly submit to hereditary prejudices but honestly and courageously uses his intelligence."

"My religion consists of a humble admiration of the illimitable superior spirit who reveals himself in the slight details we are able to perceive with our frail and feeble mind."

"If A is a success in life, then A equals x plus y plus z. Work is x; y is play; and z is keeping your mouth shut."

"Education is what remains after one has forgotten everything he learned in school."

"We can't solve problems by using the same kind of thinking we used when we created them."

"Anyone who has never made a mistake has never tried anything new."

"The only real valuable thing is intuition."

Life

2010-07-09T16:29:00.002+05:30

Life is not what it was supposed to be
Life is what it is and it's a boon

If life's not good to me too bad
its up to me to make it whatever I can

Just remember: "you can be anything, but you cannot be everything."

I like compliments :)

2010-07-08T00:09:00.000+05:30

Today, I got reminded how much I like compliments :)

I had absolutely forgotten!!

God bless the nice person who made me feel good about myself after so long, and thank you for saying what you said.

Today

2010-07-05T21:20:00.000+05:30

Only God knows how I survived today.

We had Mr. Subroto Bagchi in our office today, who gave us a very inspiring talk. And he said " Success means rising above pain. It means keeping your perspective even when the world seems dark and everything seems lost. It's about delaying your negative judgments about the world till the next day."

This came on the day when I really really felt giving up on life. But I am listening to Mr. Bagchi, I am delaying my judgment to tomorrow.

More about Mr. Subroto Bagchi's session later.

Gyaan

2010-07-04T11:55:00.000+05:30

Even if Truth will Hurt, I want the truth.

- Tragedy Queen

You know what's silly- that you want the truth from someone who you can't trust anyway. So even if you get some answers, they might not be the truth and they'll still hurt.

- 'Gyaani' Mango Man

Today's date

2010-07-03T14:56:00.000+05:30

The date 3rd leaves me with mixed and confused feelings. I wish I could skip this date every month for the rest of my life. Is that possible, Mr. God?

Three important lessons

2010-07-03T08:52:00.000+05:30

1. Think good. You may say good and do great. But thinking good is what makes all the difference.
2. Only Trust Yourself. Never ever make the mistake of trusting anyone completely. Be emotional with intelligence. It takes a day for people to show true colors.
3. Never forget the above two - even in your sleep.

and I agree...

2010-07-02T16:56:00.004+05:30

Rather than Love, than Money, than Fame, give me Truth - Chris McCandless

It is true...

2010-07-01T15:22:00.000+05:30

I have always felt so protected, that I have longed for excitement and hoped to get a taste of real life adventure. And my prayers were answered. In fact, I got more excitement than I ever bargained for. I dared to play with fire, thinking fire was my friend - but who is fire's friend really? It leaves no one.

And I really have to pinch my badly burnt hand sometimes, so that the excruciating pain that follows makes me really believe that this is the Truth. It doesn't matter if I can't get out of my comfort zone. It doesn't change the Truth!!

It's rightly said. Sometimes, Truth IS stranger than Fiction...

guess what

2010-06-29T13:28:00.000+05:30

If you don't design your own life plan, chances are you'll fall into someone else's plan. And guess what they have planned for you? Not much

- Jim Rohn